I’m writing about authenticity this week because it is the repeating theme in my life right now and I’ve learned to pay attention to that kind of stuff.
It’s come up with my daughter and what *I* thought she needed to look like on picture day. It surfaced again as I promote my newest book How to Live an Awesome Life and learn to balance the needs of marketing – I am passionate about this book and
I want it to sell well — with my discomfort and lack of expertise when it comes to promotion. It’s also the topic of a popular article. Seems we are all wrestling with ourselves.
Last week, my daughter had picture day at school and we filled out the form and Sweet P picked the shirt she wanted to wear, not my fave, but not terrible either and then she came out with her hair. Oh, her hair. And headband. Pretty sure it was bigger than her head. Oh My. But she was excited and she felt AWESOME!
And I started to go all Mom, rearranging, and suggesting, and fixing. I stopped just short of spit-licking my finger to wipe off any smudges on her face. After all, these are the photos that will go to the grandparents and all.
And then, in an incredible moment of awareness, which happened when I turned away for just a sec to pour myself a cup o’ joe, I was saved from myself. Right there. I got it.
When, I turned back toward her, I saw that she looked just like Sweet P. Full of life and energy and sweetness and the headband surrounded a healthy brain and mocha-colored hair which is clean because we have shampoo and water and a shower. And her eyes are sparkly and curious and she had a little, confident smile on her face which I usually get when she’s acting more self-aware and mature than I am.
And all I could see was light and all I could feel was gratitude for this being that I get to live with in this place we get to live.
Sweet P is completely herself. In every way. And that isn’t always convenient for me. It isn’t always polite or comfortable for me, but it is so honest and real and authentic. I admire her. I want to help her stay close to that authenticity, rather than get in the way of it.
I’m learning a tremendous amount about myself by loving her. And I know today, that those pics are going to look just like Sweet P and I am so glad and grateful.